Who is it that's always there? Who else if not Allah? ^_^
You know, years ago my mum told me an ayah that's become one of my favourites right up till now. Only years later I found out that it was the same ayah our beloved Rasulullah s.a.w. told Abu Bakr when they were hiding away in a cave.
:) That's quite a clue already. hee...so what's the ayah?
'La takhof wa la tahzan, innallaha maana.'
(Don't be afraid and don't be sad, verily Allah is with us.)
MasyaAllah...how those words seep into my heart and soul. There are times we feel so weak and vulnerable. I've been having a fair share of those times myself too and it all comes down to the fact that it's us that needs Allah. We need Allah.
That's a question that has been running in my mind very often. What it means to be humble, what it takes to be humble...and I find myself feeling that the word 'humble' itself really misleads us into thinking that it is something simple to attain when in fact it is not.
It is not easy to be humble, not with a proud heart. And being humble is not just about how you portray yourself but more importantly it's about how you feel inside. How you look upon the world, upon other people and still remember who you really are despite whatever circumstance you come across.
Why do we take pride as though it is noble? The part where you feel you are better than others eats you up, turns your heart to stone. How can light penetrate stone? Your heart will then be dark and what can be more terrifying than not to be brought to His light? Not to recieve His light. Astaghfirullah...
This heart needs to be taught, needs to be tamed...it cannot be proud. If it is not for the deen that has been given to us by Allah, we are worthless. What we should be proud of is the deen and not ourselves. All praise is to Allah and not ourselves.
We come from humble origins. So humble yet Allah chose us to reach heights higher than any other creature He has created...but that still doesn't change who we were, where we came from and we must remember that. I must remember that.
All we do, is from the will of Allah. Don't think that it is from our own will. It really is not. Allah chooses...pray that He still chooses you.
Here's a video I watched by brother Nouman. Do watch, salam alayk~
I did say I will elaborate further on this right? Alhamdulillah now I have time to do so, so here goes.
Let's just recap the saying.
"Allah is with the broken hearted. When your heart breaks, it's a good thing - the breaking of the heart is what opens it up to the light of Allah. The dunya is designed to break your heart, to crush it."
-Shaykh Hamza Yusuf-
MasyaAllah. You know what I first thought about when I read this? It's the fact that Allah is so comforting and that the dunya just cannot have a place in our hearts. It also occured to me that there is a reason our hearts are broken, are crushed although it's not something we enjoy. You see, without a broken heart, how could you feel the sweetness of comfort? How would you even know the meaning of comfort if everything has been going your way?
That's just how it is. We appreciate warmth when we're cold, we appreciate food when we are hungry and we appreciate air when it's hard to breathe. Alhamdulillah for Allah has created opposites, has created things in pairs. Has ensured everything is in it's place and that everything has it's cure.
And when He created the dunya that He keeps mentioning in the Quran to be a place that decieves us, He made it in such a way so that we are not attached to it. Who would pick something that hurts over what heals? Right? But the problem is we have been fooled till we could not see the dunya for what it truly is. Fooled till we don't see akhirah and we feel as though it is so far from us.
My dear brothers and sisters, that broken heart that hurts so bad is actually a cure! A cure to bring you back to Allah, to make you realise and to make you see that this world is not where you're meant to be. To humble your proud heart to the One that owns it. To cure you from feelings you shouldn't have. From diseases of the heart that satans never give up on planting. To free you from all that is other than Allah. To give meaning to your life.
Rejoice in that broken heart. Savor it for indeed it is actually a gift. A gift He knows you can handle. A gift He knows you need.
Alhamdulillah, I've gone through half of my final exams and awaiting for the other half next week. MasyaAllah, only Allah knows how I feel and to me, it's enough that He knows and understands. I read a brother's blog today that brought tears to my eyes. How indeed that everything that happens to you is by Allah. Everything is by Allah...
Just saying that should calm your heart. Knowing that it's by Allah, trusting and truly believing that. Accepting what is meant to be yours, not hoping for otherwise and being content.
Here's a video that's very close to my heart. I just wish to share it with you. A reminder that I'd constantly need so that I remember who I am. Do watch~
Ya Allah, forgive me. Forgive my heart. Forgive my brothers and sisters ya Allah. Only You can grant us forgiveness. Only You and no one else...and we don't need anyone else, we don't have anyone else other than You. Pull us close to You ya Allah. Ameen~
Here's an interesting saying I got from a friend. I do wish to elaborate further on what I think about this saying but right now time doesn't permit me to do much of that yet. It's okay :) I'll just post this up anyway for thought ey?
"Allah is with the broken-hearted. When your heart breaks, it's a good thing. The breaking of the heart is what opens it up to the light of Allah. The dunya is designed to break your heart, to crush it."
-Shaykh Hamza Yusuf-
Such a deep thing to say don't you think? I was immediately touched upon reading this. InsyaAllah, if it's meant to be I shall write later on my thoughts about this saying. But one thing I can say now is, there is comfort in a broken heart. My brothers and sisters, is there a better comfort than Allah?
Till I write again, may Allah take care of you and I from the whispers of satan and from our own nafs. Ameen~
This morning I was searching for food for my heart and I found this video. At first what intrigued me was the title. Satan's trick? Wow...what is it? But then I found something more valueable in this video later on. Subhanallah. Watch it first before you read what I have to say next.
Subhanallah. I do hope you watched it. hee :) I was really attracted to the story brother Nouman shared when he went to the mall. Seeing a child get yelled at by his mother and yet still clinging on to her. Not caring about the rest of the world around him and still wanting his mother. MasyaAllah... It is true, the fact that we've sinned ever so much and we still turn to Allah. Why? Coz there really is no where else to turn to but Allah! Although we've wronged Him and such, we still cling on to Him and that is how it should be. That's how He likes it! MasyaAllah, Ar-Rahim...He loves it not only when we cling but when we cling on tighter!
Ya Allah...do forgive our sins. O' Lord who knows our sins better than we do. Who conceals and hides away our embarassing sins from knowledge of others. The One who keeps and knows all secrets. Forgive us ya Allah~
...bahagia melihat kebahagiaan orang lain :) Hamba-hamba Allah yang bersungguh-sungguh bekerja demi mengejar cinta Allah. Mengejar redha Allah. Subhanallah...adakah aku selama ini buta kerana tidak dapat melihat betapa istimewanya akhawat di sekeliling ku? Adakah hatiku selama ini terlalu memikirkan diri sendiri? Astaghfirullah...
Aku bersyukur kerana masih diberi peluang untuk melihat apa yang sebelum ini tertutup dari pandanganku. Bersyukur kerana Allah masih memilihku untuk sedar. Untuk bangun dari tidurku. Alhamdulillah...sungguh, sakitku ini rupanya nikmat...nikmat yang tidak ku sedari. Alhamdulillah :)
I just listened to this song today and I thought I'd share it with all of you. My dear brothers and sisters :) How many times do we actually think about this? The fact that, without Allah...nothing holds any meaning.