I've decided :)

Don't make me change my mind okay? :) After all the decision is mine to make. I'm smiling now, even when this week hasn't been that pretty for many but yes here I am smiling. I admit I was wrong to feel cold towards accusors coz the thing is I brought it to myself. The fault is mine and so I'm sorry for my mistake.

I take this as another direct lesson from Allah and so it is my duty to have learnt something from it otherwise it'd be a waste. Don't worry coz I did learn and here are somethings I'd like to say to a few people.

1. To Arine my dear friend, thanks for calling me yesterday :) I'm glad that even if we're no longer in tkc we maintain a great friendship somehow. Wish you were here though. :P After all, no one has ever gotten as close as you when it comes to understanding me and I mean human in this case of course. What you wrote in our blog is indeed right. I needed to be reminded :P thanks.

2. To Mira yang comel :P You've made me feel so much better today. I know I can always count on you :) thanks a lot.

3. To a person perhaps on the verge of bursting with anger. I'm sorry I caused that anger to strike and to have made you feel the way you feel now. I was ignorant to it but knowing doesn't really help since I don't know what'll make you feel better. Hopefully Allah will help coz He knows best.

4. To an unexpected commentor. Your comments never fail to make me laugh :D

5. And lastly to you although very unlikely for you to read this, I just wanna say don't tell me. You know what I mean and I think we both agree it's for the best. Whatever it is you'd like to say, perhaps it's best to keep. But then again, if you must I do have an answer for you.

I'm moving out from this figureless conflict. Not running away but leaving after realising my mistake. May we all improve and get ourselves nearer to what's most important - Allah. The time now is indeed not right and so wait and be patient. Because we have done wrong, do not feel too bad about it, just get back on the right track.

"Sungguh, orang-orang munafik itu (ditempatkan) pada tingkatan paling bawah dari neraka. Dan kamu tidak akan dapat seorang penolong pun bagi mereka, kecuali orang-orang yang bertaubat dan memperbaiki diri dan berpegang teguh pada (agama) Allah dan dengan tulus ikhlas (menjalankan) agama mereka kerana Allah. Maka mereka itu bersama-sama orang -orang yang beriman dan kelak Allah akan memberikan pahala yang besar kepada orang-orang yang beriman."

[An-Nisa' 4:145&146]