Using your talent...

...for a greater purpose :)

MasyaAllah...let's take a 10 minute break from whatever we are doing to take a look at this.

My medicine today :)

Salam alayk brothers and sisters ^_^

Subhanallah, Allah led me to this video and I would really love to share it with you. May it be one of the things that cleans us, softens our hearts and give us calmness. Reminding us of things we may have forgotten. InsyaAllah~

'If things were easy to find, they wouldn't be worth finding'

Those words spoke to my heart...and for once after a long time...I managed to really cry.

Not just for any reason, but for the right one :)

Just as I've always believed, nothing beats crying for Allah. Nothing.

Salam alayk brothers and sisters ^_^

What has it been...3 months? I'm sorry. Hee... Writing a blog isn't just about writing for the sake of it. Wouldn't wanna go on posting without purpose right? InsyaAllah, that purpose has returned and here I am now in the last month of this year. I had a thought, in fact many thoughts rushed into my mind when I first heard those words in the title being said...but the one thing above them all in the midst of rushing memories...was Allah.

We all like simple things don't we? Easy stuff. Things that are not complicated (okay I'm just rewording everything here :P) but the fact is... life isn't just one simple thing. It's an orchestra of many things interrelated yet so beautifully created by Allah that it all makes sense to be intertwined with each other. Everything is so special...that generalizing just doesn't do justice to His creations, including you.

I think (and yes this is purely what I think) that it is important to not keep saying or implying that there is something wrong with a person just because he or she sees things or does things in a different way. Not to say that people do this or anything. It's just a mere thought. Something to reflect upon by myself first and foremost and all of you. One has to believe in oneself, in his or her own capability. Look for it and use it. The journey to Allah isn't the same for everyone. It's different, tailored in fact...to fit each of us in the way that suits us best.

Because like I keep saying, Allah knows best and He sure knows how to make life interesting.

This year has taught me a lot and one of the most important things is how to feel and really mean what I say. Words are not enough. Sure they sound nice, make you think etc...but they are not enough. They are merely words unless you do something about it. That's exactly it, you have to do something about it.

I have been looking for something for quite a long while now and I guess it disheartened me the fact that it was so difficult, the fact that it felt so unreachable...but now I know that whatever it is...insyaAllah, I cannot and will not stop trying...because I know with all my heart that it is worth finding.

I just have to have the guts to do it :P and patience above all.

Let us all keep praying for each other, coz surely...we all need it.

^_^

Koran by heart

Salam alayk :)

I found this at a sister's page today. Subhanallah it's wonderful. How Allah s.w.t is so great. Subhanallah...subhanallah...

Do watch :)

Koran by Heart from MuslimCommunityTV on Vimeo.

"Truly in the heart there is a void that cannot be removed except with the company of Allah. And in it there is a sadness that cannot be removed except with the happiness of knowing Allah and being true to Him. And in it there is an emptiness that cannot be filled except with love for Him and by turning to Him and always remembering Him. And if a person were given all of the world and what is in it, it would not fill this emptiness."

-Ibn Qayyim Al Jawziyyah-

I've heard someone say that loneliness is underrated...but then again if we talk about the void as being referred to by Ibn Qayyim, it isn't. Say what you want to make yourself feel better. It's underrated, it's not true, it can be coped with, it's no big deal etc..etc

But all you're doing is fool yourself...because that emptiness is real and has only one cure.

And that cure...is Allah~

The difficulty in breaking free

Salam alayk :)

It's a refreshing feeling when you take time to listen or I suppose in many more cases, read what others have to say. You'd realise how beautiful people are from within themselves. A beauty often overlooked nowadays. Often deemed to be unimportant.

There's no one really to blame for that. At least no one in particular. We live in a diseased world and I guess a truth that I didn't really wanna think of and believe is that in some ways, I've been deceived too. The way we think, give opinions...in the slightest of ways even may be off track without us realising because we were brought up in conditions exposing us to a certain frame of mind that seems to be the way we should think when in fact it is not.

Such subtle ways are we all fooled and see how it's worked. Of course it's working, we're all part of a long devised plan. One so elaborate and long term with people who work extremely hard behind them. I'm beginning to see now that's why it is so difficult for us to resist our old ways. To completely get rid of things we grew up with, what our parents grew up with too.

And one of the most powerful things clinging us on to what we should leave...are memories. Memories that are mostly good ones to us. Familiar happy feelings and how unfortunate it is for those memories to be so intertwined with jahiliyyah that we should want to leave. It's sad, but true...and I find myself in a confusing state when I'm back with the ones I love. I feel torn apart and helpless mostly but there's also a comfort that I honestly don't want to leave. Something I'm sure many others have felt too. The difficulty in breaking free.

There's so much more for me to learn...for us to learn. May Allah give us strength and patience in doing that and may He choose us to prevail. Aamiin~

Short yet so meaningful

What indeed can the one who has found Allah be said to have lost? -Sayyid Qutb-

Reading this, I can only throw a smile :)

How do we break our fast?

Salam alayk dear brothers & sisters,

How is your Ramadhan? I hope each day gets better for us all insyaAllah and may we all alert ourselves to the constant tarbiyyah Allah gives us. After all, fasting is solely for Him and He will be the One to reward it.

Anyway look what I found today. A familiar phenomena I'd say :P Let's watch!



So, which one are we? Hee ^_^

Pain of the unforgiving

I don't know for sure but that surely is the indication I'm getting. That I'm not forgiven. It made me look back at my old post 2 years ago, the Sweetness of Forgiveness. Now that we're in the second phase of Ramadhan, all the more reason to talk about this.

The phase of forgiveness.

I was listening to a talk by Shaykh Hamza Yusuf and what he said really caught my attention.

'The soul can only be brought back to life by recognizing why it was created and then setting out and striving to achieve that goal. Recognizing that we will have shortcomings. That we will make mistakes. That those mistakes are part of our humanity. That Allah s.w.t. knows those mistakes because He created us to make those mistakes so that we would turn to Him and He could in turn, turn to us and forgive us. And this is why we are created. We were created to respond to Allah and the only way a slave feels its servitude to Allah is in its abject nature. It is in its subjugation to Allah that occurs by doing wrong and then desiring atonement. Desiring to reconnect with ones true nature.'

And Allah being Most Gracious of all...is always waiting for us to reconnect.

I'm ashamed of myself really. This past month I have been sick. Being sick this month got me cranky somehow and I failed to see the hikmah behind my sickness. Failed to attain as much benefit from it as a muslim should. For sickness can dispose sins. I was blinded by pain & discomfort and it was all I could think about causing me to sigh a lot, fret...and forget how one should act in such situations. And incidentally those close to me had to hear all this from me everyday. Had to get such a negative vibe from me. Had to bear with me being complicated and hard to understand.

I didn't want to be this way and now with pain as pressure I'm desperately pulling myself together. I guess sometimes we just need to learn things the hard way coz then only will there be effect. I realize that every one of us has limits to their patience. I'm sorry I crossed that line for you. I don't know why it's bothering me so much and now I don't even have you to tell this to. You still won't speak to me.

It's odd isn't it? How forgiveness from man, when not given...aches so much you can even literally feel it in your chest. But forgiveness from Allah, whom we wrong everyday of our lives, whom we never quite deservingly love...doesn't quite give us such bother. Astaghfirullah... :'(

Waiting...for an answer to whether or not you've forgiven me is agonizing...but the One I've really wronged is Allah and not you. May you find it in your heart to empathize, to forgive, to see your own mistakes, own up to them and to cherish those who cherish you.

Have mercy my brothers & sisters for you seek mercy too.

The sheltering cloud

Salam alayk :)

Okay enough with being gloomy (note to self XD), time to take action and smile! Have you heard of this story before? The sheltering cloud. Let's do some reading cay? Watch this video ^_^



Subhanallah...what do you think? A simple story yet it holds such deep meaning. The state of the heart is really something we need to take notice. Something we must always look after because it changes everything. It changes who we are. People may not notice but know that our hearts never escape the knowledge of Allah s.w.t.

No more thinking about what people think. Put Allah first, ALLAH! And He'll handle the people we're so worried about before. He will because He knows best as opposed to us who get confused when given options.

Let's solve this fundamental problem together and together heal our hearts. It's gonna be a lot of work but it's a cause worth fighting for.

Step 1: In the name of Allah, get rid of unnecessary pride and arrogance.
Don't look down on others! Look in the mirror and see our own blemishes that need fixing. Remember the sheltering cloud :)

Simple? Childish? It's okay. We've got to start somewhere :) insyaAllah.

My fear

A hypocrite with an eloquent tongue, one who is ignorant of Allah but knows the rules of Allah, one who destroys himself...

Ya Allah, ya Allah...protect us from turning into that. From falling out of the path to You. From forgetting ourselves. From deceiving ourselves. Save us with Your grace and light. Help us. Give us strength.

Please protect me from my fear ya Rabb...Aamiin~

My silence...

...was what I needed and now the awkward start begins.

I'm different now. Not so perhaps to those who know me. Much so to those who think they know me. I meant no harm. Honest...I just did what I had to do. No more pretending. No more resenting.

It wasn't all a lie. No...I genuinely had moments where my heart felt so at peace. Moments I reached out...bursting with honesty & truth trying to make sense of it all. Trying to connect. But I feel there is something missing, something I still don't understand causing me to be this way. There was something wrong with me and to ignore it any longer would only do more harm than good.

Words don't suffice to explain what's going on with me, forgive me for that. I want to start over...this time insyaAllah with the right foot forward, with my heart in place. I took a risk and it wasn't easy.

So please...let me~

‎"Kita perlu akrab dengan manusia untuk mengetahui masalahnya, namun yang lebih utama, adalah kita perlu akrab dengan Allah agar kita dapat mengetahui cara untuk menyelesaikan sesuatu masalah dengan sebaiknya."

Benar kan? Kerana penyelesaian itu perlu berlandaskan kepada apa yang diredhaiNya dan bukanlah sekadar pendapat peribadi kita. Kerana yang Haq itu bukanlah menurut ketetapan kita tetapi menurut ketetapan Allah.

Kadang-kadang begitu mudah sekali kita lupa kan? Astaghfirullah...

One that leads to the other

Salam alayk :)

Did some reading today & I came across this saying by Ibn Qayyim Al Jawziyyah~

'Repel the thought, for if you don't, it becomes an idea. So repel the idea, for if you don't it will become a desire. So fight against that (desire), for if you don't, it will become a determination and a passion. And if you don't repel that, it will become action. And if you don't replace it with it's opposite, it will become a constant habit. So at that point, it will be difficult for you to change it.'

I find this to be so true. Sometimes we let ourselves slip from one to the other ever so quickly that a simple thought becomes a habit in a blink of an eye. And at that point it seems we're in trouble of getting out of it even if we want to.

But the key I would say is the word 'difficult'...not impossible...only difficult. Which means one way or another you can do it. You've just got to be willing to face it and stop holding back.

It's troubling sometimes...being curious...but insyaAllah whatever it is that has passed, I pray may Allah help to keep me from having regrets. I wish not to have any.

Besides Allah knows best after all. ^_^

Old company

Salam alayk :)

The company I'm referring to isn't one that is being run by corporations but rather the presence and being around people. In this case, the company of those who are more familiar to me than others.

It is sort of different because as you grow and meet other people you change in subtle ways in which you might not even realise. But then again, with certain company, what's fundamental remains. And to me, that offers comfort that I need.

Growing up together although miles apart. You know who you are. Hope to meet up soon!

There are other things that are more important than the fear we feel.

Salam alayk :)

Yes, i know...this is the longest I've been without a scrap of news but today I decided to change that. This is not the end at all. I'm still writing and will keep doing so insyaAllah.

My previous post left quite a mark on me. An issue I think I still can't conquer but even so it should not have stopped me on my tracks, my steps to Him. I can't just stay here like this, I need to walk again. :)

It's nice how your own writings come back to teach you. When Allah chooses you to read them again and gain from it. Look at it in a different point of view. Coz what's more important is what's being said rather than the person saying it. And you find yourself who was in the past consoling the you today. Giving the you today strength and hope that you can still turn things around. To make you believe you can.

So I'm gonna finish this post with what I jotted down from the video below if I'm not mistaken. May we all never get tired of trying to be who we are destined to be :)

'If you sincerely ask for guidance, be ready for what you get. It may not be something you like, you may have to give up your desires for it because you are not the one in position in making demands. He is the one who places the demands, you accept them. Don't look at religion as 'why is God not telling me what I wanna hear?' 'Why don't I get to do what I wanna do?' It's not about you. You already acknowledge that you owe Him gratitude. He doesn't owe you anything. So be sincere and submissive in your search. When you find the truth, you submit to it, you put your ego before it. You put it on the ground basically, and you give in to the Lord of the worlds.'

There are other things that are more important than the fear we feel. Have courage... for the sake of Allah.

Sincerity

Salam alayk :)

Here's a video that I'd like to share with all of you. First off let me just say a few things. You know how people tend to get so worked up about other people not being honest with them? Not being able to trust due to the lack of honesty in people? Yeah well, I've seen a lot of that and I feel that way too. Without honesty, trust is hard to come by. Now let me think of it in a different way. How about honesty to one's ownself? Forget about other people for a minute and think this over. Let's ask ourselves this, 'Have I been honest with myself? Or have I been inclined to follow my desires rather than admit truth?'

Can I trust myself? That I think is an important fact to set straight. Why? Because if we can't be honest with ourselves, how will we ever see the truth?

So the key here is to be honest with yourself first to find the truth. There's no use lying, you should know yourself. And knowing yourself is the path in knowing your Creator ^_^

Okay then, let's watch this :)

Note to self.

'Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.'

Yup, that's right. In times like this, I would remember this saying I heard years ago. A quote I feel is etched in me and better understood as I grow. There are many other things that are more important than the fear you feel. If you could take a moment to realise that the world is not just about you, you'd see why your fear of taking that step is less important than the fact that you must take that step.

It takes courage to get up. It takes courage to pick yourself up and start running again. To run faster than you ever thought you could.

You do have courage don't you? I know you do. So, what are you waiting for?
Get up.

You must.

A silence that speaks

Salam alayk my brothers & sisters ^_^

Last night I came accross this video. It struck me hard. Hard because I could relate to it so much. Those times when witnessing can penetrate you rather than listening and through this story I visualised a truth that cannot be denied.



MasyaAllah, such art in da'wa ^_^

A message I truly appreciate.

Salam alayk :) To my sisters, do take this message. To my brothers, share this with your sisters.

'Don't limit yourself,'

...she told me.

InsyaAllah, I won't~

There is only One God.

Tawheed :)

I found this video and fell in love. hee ^_^ I've always thought videos like this are creative. Simple & most importantly get's the message accross insyaAllah.



Nice ey? Now, now this isn't something only for fun to sing along with. What's more important is for that message to sink in. What's the most important message here? There is only One God. Allah...

Allah alone. No one else...

Good Character

Salam alayk brothers & sisters :)

These days Allah has given a test in which I have never been through before. MasyaAllah, I see it as a chance for 'amal'! InsyaAllah ^_^ I see now that it's so true when someone said to me before, to be able to really feel that the Quran is meant for you and to understand it is to experience it. What is this experience? How do we experience and feel the relevance of His words? It is to go through the same path as Rasulullah s.a.w our beloved prophet :) Yup, that's how. To know sirah (history) and follow his ways. Then only will you find yourself in the same condition as him and feel the words of Allah in your heart. Feel that Allah is explaining to you what has happened, what you feel & what you should say and do.

After knowing this my brothers & sisters, can you live without doing da'wa? Da'wa which is Rasulullah's greatest sunnah, can you go on living your life without it? You can't!

Here's just one of my favourite videos. A portion out of a speech Hamza Yusuf made. Just to remind me of the importance of 'akhlak'. One of the most important things in da'wa :)



InsyaAllah, may He guide me through this and give me strength. May He give strength to us all.

Wisdom found!

MasyaAllah! ^_^

Salam alayk brothers & sisters! Why am I so excited? Coz as I was flipping through my notebook I found hidden wisdom! hee :) What do I mean by that? Well, it was something I jotted down quite a while ago and I totally forgot about it. Let me write it here then.

Hasan Basri (Rahimahullah) advised some of his students, admonishing them about avoiding the state of being proud. He said, 'Do not decieve yourself into being too proud because you are in a good & righteous environment, for there is no place that is better than paradise, and our father Adam experienced there what was known to all. Do not become proud merely because you worship often, for consider what happened to Iblis after he spent a great deal of time worshipping. Do not think yourself great because you have met with righteous people, for there is no man more righteous than the prophet, yet the disbelievers and hypocrites did not benefit simply by knowing him.'

You know, I was thinking. Sometimes we tend to decieve ourselves a lot more than other people. I mean, we may think we are smart at decieving others but the one we are actually decieving is our ownself. Didn't get what that meant before when as a child my mum told me, 'If you don't keep your promise, you are only lying to yourself.' I understand now mama. :) Jazakillah~

Three loaves of bread.

Salam alayk ^_^

Something light tonight before I study. Have you heard of this story? Starting off with 3 loaves of bread. A simple story exposing a simple truth that only the heart that is willing to see and listen would understand deeply. May that heart be yours and mine insyaAllah :) Let's watch!



Astaghfirullah...may He protect us all from being decieved by this dunya. An ustaz once shared something about the companions' iman. They see the dunya and treat it as if it is a mirage...an illusion..therefore they have no interest in it. One of the examples being that they have no love for wealth and give it away so easily, and we know how they live with only the very basic of things. Well, in return for that as they hunger akhirah and long for it so much, to them, Allah made akhirah seem so real. MasyaAllah! :)

Incredible don't you think? To really know what's important up to the point that Allah let's you take a glimpse of that eternal life. Subhanallah...reflect on how we are!

A poem, when my words just don't seem right. Allah gave me this.

Do watch!

Worry ends when faith begins :)

Salam alayk brothers & sisters ^_^

Just before I go off to class here's a song I'd like to share with all of you. May we begin our day with a great start and may Allah always be in our hearts. Ameen~

To witness...

...is to spread the word, the feeling, the understanding, the whole deal until another feels the same way as though he or she has witnessed the same thing.

That's what witnessing means, it's not merely seeing something with your two eyes and be done with it. No...When you are a witness, you have a responsibility to transmit truth. You have a duty to fulfil. A duty our prophet Rasulullah s.a.w has been doing all his life. So did his companions, and those who came after them. A duty to do da'wa. To do da'wa for the sake of Allah.

What is this truth that we must spread? What is the ultimate truth?

The truth that Allah is the One and Only God...
The truth of His deen. The understanding of our purpose, our journey & our destination.

InsyaAllah I'll write more on this soon. Here's a nasyid by Dawud Wharnsby. Do take it as food for thought and also for your heart. ^_^ Salam alayk~

It begins with you.

Salam alayk brothers and sisters ^_^

Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah. I just got back from a program in Meath and I'd like to share a video that my sisters shared with me :) It's very simple and straight forward. So true that it went straight to my heart.




:) That was something wasn't it? Subhanallah. Even without understanding the language, the message is universal and clear. In this video what they're singing is basically 'You go and all of india will go with you.' Simply said, it's important for you to take the first step coz with that, the rest will follow insyaAlllah. That's all it takes.

The first step is the hardest. Look at that boy. Logically he would never have been able to move that tree away from the road but he did try to anyway right? And it wasn't like he was fooling around knowing he can't do it, he tried his hardest! He pushed with all his might! And his action sparked other people to the same. Doing something although it seems impossible. We could really apply that in our life don't you think? :)

Fretting about things happening around us, putting the blame on others and in the end just complaining without a single act being done towards solving the problem. Where does that bring you? No where.

On the road to jannah, ask for strength from Allah. Spreading His word is the duty of every muslim. Don't wait for others, you start. It begins with you!

39:53

What's that you ask? One of my favourite verses in the Quran. Az-Zumar verse 53 ^_^

Salam alayk my brothers and sisters :)

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah for today, right at this moment, Allah has still given you and I life. May this moment be one full of remembrance of Him insyaAllah and may He be in our hearts, our thoughts, and our every being every step of the way. I'm off to class shortly but before that here's a video I'd like to share. It's quite a long one but I assure you that you'd love it. I know I do and insyaAllah hopefully I get to start my day well. May Allah give you time to watch :)

Regarding the verse I mentioned, let me just write it down here.

'Katakanlah, 'Wahai hamba-hambaKu yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri! Janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sungguh Dialah yang Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang. Dan kembalilah kamu kepada TuhanMu, dan berserah dirilah kepadaNya sebelum datang azab kepadamu, kemudian kamu tidak dapat ditolong.'

[Az-Zumar 39:53-54]

Yeah I added the next verse too. This video made me see the importance of it collectively than on it's own. You'd understand if you watch. hee :) Besides, the whole Quran should be viewed and understood collectively as a whole and not seperate. InsyaAllah, slowly we'd be able to reach that kind of understanding.

Watch with your heart all right? Bismillah :)

Pick up where I left.

That's what I need to do and not only that, I should run forward as fast as my heart would take me. Run faster, much faster than before.

Salam alayk my brothers & sisters ^_^

MasyaAllah. How important it is to have people around you to remind you, to bring you back. Although you might not realise what you've done, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for opening my eyes once again. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah :)

It touches me, to see you wanting happiness for others. It touches me to see you care so much and somehow it is as though I could feel the sincerity of your thoughts. How what you feel is genuine and true. Alhamdulillah, for Allah has given such capability to you and may He continue choosing you and protecting you always. Ameen~

See? It's true that akhlak has an effective way of reaching a person's heart and this of course reminds me dearly of our beloved prophet Rasulullah s.a.w. How fortunate to be a person who reminds others of Rasulullah don't you think? :) The example & mercy to us all.

It's not too late. Not yet. For me to catch up and run. As for you, don't you dare fall behind. We're going to the same place aren't we? Although we go seperately but insyaAllah we'll meet in the end. Let's go! ^_^

Reality.

Sometimes it feels like everything is crushing down and you want to understand and be truthful to yourself. What if truth is something you can't bear? What if you're a coward pretending to have courage? What if the one you hurt...is yourself?

I guess the past weeks haven't been so light on me but that was then. This is me now taking charge and wanting to break free from this feeling insyaAllah. The world around me is moving so fast and I can't afford to stay put here. Although sometimes in order to see things clearly, one has to stay still to allow facts to sink in. Stay still to think and understand. But after that what one should do is to get up and take action and we need strength for that. Strength that only Allah alone can give and that we must ask for in order to get it.

I apologize for not writing. Truth is as I have been saying so many times before there are so many things I wish to share that have yet to be posted. But that's okay, we'll take it a step at a time :) I don't regret the days that have gone by without updates here. I've learnt not to regret on what has passed. Not saying that it's easy but just to strengthen our belief when we say we trust that whatever Allah has destined is what's best. Yes, I believe that and it's time that we act out what we believe in.

Have you ever wondered why you act so foolishly against your own principles? I do think of that and the answer I come up with is because I let my guard down and let my nafs take over. And we all know that nothing good ever comes when your nafs is what's driving you. Astaghfirullah. I take it as a lesson from Allah. The fact that whatever will I have is from Him and Him alone and that I deserve no credit. Also the fact that one can never be too proud of his or her principles because the only One to help you abide to it is Allah, not yourself.

It's a shame and I do feel ashamed but there is no use in fretting about it now. What I can do is to be stronger than I was before. So long as Allah knows, it matters less what other people think. I trust if I mend things with Him, He'll take care of it better than I ever could. I wonder if any of this makes sense to you. Haha...perhaps not :P But that's okay, I felt I had to write this anyway. Let it be a start so that I write more soon ^_^

Do remember that Allah controls everything and everything happens at His will whether you like it or not. Stop dreaming that you can oppose that coz the reality is you can't. Submit to Him, devote yourself to Him in every way you can. InsyaAllah, may the reality of your life then be worth while~

Always be there.

Who is it that's always there? Who else if not Allah? ^_^

You know, years ago my mum told me an ayah that's become one of my favourites right up till now. Only years later I found out that it was the same ayah our beloved Rasulullah s.a.w. told Abu Bakr when they were hiding away in a cave.

:) That's quite a clue already. hee...so what's the ayah?

'La takhof wa la tahzan, innallaha maana.'

(Don't be afraid and don't be sad, verily Allah is with us.)

MasyaAllah...how those words seep into my heart and soul. There are times we feel so weak and vulnerable. I've been having a fair share of those times myself too and it all comes down to the fact that it's us that needs Allah. We need Allah.

And guess what, He is always there for you ^_^

What it means to be humble...

That's a question that has been running in my mind very often. What it means to be humble, what it takes to be humble...and I find myself feeling that the word 'humble' itself really misleads us into thinking that it is something simple to attain when in fact it is not.

It is not easy to be humble, not with a proud heart. And being humble is not just about how you portray yourself but more importantly it's about how you feel inside. How you look upon the world, upon other people and still remember who you really are despite whatever circumstance you come across.

Why do we take pride as though it is noble? The part where you feel you are better than others eats you up, turns your heart to stone. How can light penetrate stone? Your heart will then be dark and what can be more terrifying than not to be brought to His light? Not to recieve His light. Astaghfirullah...

This heart needs to be taught, needs to be tamed...it cannot be proud. If it is not for the deen that has been given to us by Allah, we are worthless. What we should be proud of is the deen and not ourselves. All praise is to Allah and not ourselves.

We come from humble origins. So humble yet Allah chose us to reach heights higher than any other creature He has created...but that still doesn't change who we were, where we came from and we must remember that. I must remember that.

All we do, is from the will of Allah. Don't think that it is from our own will. It really is not. Allah chooses...pray that He still chooses you.

Here's a video I watched by brother Nouman. Do watch, salam alayk~

Comfort in a broken heart: Part 2

Salam alayk ^_^

I did say I will elaborate further on this right? Alhamdulillah now I have time to do so, so here goes.

Let's just recap the saying.

"Allah is with the broken hearted. When your heart breaks, it's a good thing - the breaking of the heart is what opens it up to the light of Allah. The dunya is designed to break your heart, to crush it."

-Shaykh Hamza Yusuf-

MasyaAllah. You know what I first thought about when I read this? It's the fact that Allah is so comforting and that the dunya just cannot have a place in our hearts. It also occured to me that there is a reason our hearts are broken, are crushed although it's not something we enjoy. You see, without a broken heart, how could you feel the sweetness of comfort? How would you even know the meaning of comfort if everything has been going your way?

That's just how it is. We appreciate warmth when we're cold, we appreciate food when we are hungry and we appreciate air when it's hard to breathe. Alhamdulillah for Allah has created opposites, has created things in pairs. Has ensured everything is in it's place and that everything has it's cure.

And when He created the dunya that He keeps mentioning in the Quran to be a place that decieves us, He made it in such a way so that we are not attached to it. Who would pick something that hurts over what heals? Right? But the problem is we have been fooled till we could not see the dunya for what it truly is. Fooled till we don't see akhirah and we feel as though it is so far from us.

My dear brothers and sisters, that broken heart that hurts so bad is actually a cure! A cure to bring you back to Allah, to make you realise and to make you see that this world is not where you're meant to be. To humble your proud heart to the One that owns it. To cure you from feelings you shouldn't have. From diseases of the heart that satans never give up on planting. To free you from all that is other than Allah. To give meaning to your life.

Rejoice in that broken heart. Savor it for indeed it is actually a gift. A gift He knows you can handle. A gift He knows you need.

A reminder for my heart and yours.

Salam alayk my brothers and sisters ^_^

Alhamdulillah, I've gone through half of my final exams and awaiting for the other half next week. MasyaAllah, only Allah knows how I feel and to me, it's enough that He knows and understands. I read a brother's blog today that brought tears to my eyes. How indeed that everything that happens to you is by Allah. Everything is by Allah...

Just saying that should calm your heart. Knowing that it's by Allah, trusting and truly believing that. Accepting what is meant to be yours, not hoping for otherwise and being content.

Here's a video that's very close to my heart. I just wish to share it with you. A reminder that I'd constantly need so that I remember who I am. Do watch~



Ya Allah, forgive me. Forgive my heart. Forgive my brothers and sisters ya Allah. Only You can grant us forgiveness. Only You and no one else...and we don't need anyone else, we don't have anyone else other than You. Pull us close to You ya Allah.
Ameen~

Comfort in a broken heart.

Salam alayk :)

Here's an interesting saying I got from a friend. I do wish to elaborate further on what I think about this saying but right now time doesn't permit me to do much of that yet. It's okay :) I'll just post this up anyway for thought ey?

"Allah is with the broken-hearted. When your heart breaks, it's a good thing. The breaking of the heart is what opens it up to the light of Allah. The dunya is designed to break your heart, to crush it."

-Shaykh Hamza Yusuf-

Such a deep thing to say don't you think? I was immediately touched upon reading this. InsyaAllah, if it's meant to be I shall write later on my thoughts about this saying. But one thing I can say now is, there is comfort in a broken heart. My brothers and sisters, is there a better comfort than Allah?

Till I write again, may Allah take care of you and I from the whispers of satan and from our own nafs. Ameen~

A miracle missed among the countless miracles~

Salam alayk my brothers and sisters,

Here's something I never knew. MasyaAllah...Do watch! :)



Subhanallah :')

A song for Mama :)

Salam alayk~
This is dedicated to you mama :) Love you!

No where else to turn to

Salam alayk :)

This morning I was searching for food for my heart and I found this video. At first what intrigued me was the title. Satan's trick? Wow...what is it? But then I found something more valueable in this video later on. Subhanallah. Watch it first before you read what I have to say next.



Subhanallah. I do hope you watched it. hee :) I was really attracted to the story brother Nouman shared when he went to the mall. Seeing a child get yelled at by his mother and yet still clinging on to her. Not caring about the rest of the world around him and still wanting his mother. MasyaAllah... It is true, the fact that we've sinned ever so much and we still turn to Allah. Why? Coz there really is no where else to turn to but Allah! Although we've wronged Him and such, we still cling on to Him and that is how it should be. That's how He likes it! MasyaAllah, Ar-Rahim...He loves it not only when we cling but when we cling on tighter!

Ya Allah...do forgive our sins. O' Lord who knows our sins better than we do. Who conceals and hides away our embarassing sins from knowledge of others. The One who keeps and knows all secrets. Forgive us ya Allah~

Treat our enemies as enemies should be treated.

Salam alayk my brothers and sisters :)

Just something to watch in the midst of our serious studying.



MasyaAllah, are we as confident as that brother in the video? Or how many times did we fall to the whispers of satan? Let's be stronger! Defeat those satans. Their our enemies remember???

'Dan jika syaitan mengganggumu dengan suatu godaan, maka mohonlah perlindungan kepada Allah. Sungguh, Dialah Yang Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui.'

[Fussilat 41:36]

Perasaan hari ini...

...bahagia melihat kebahagiaan orang lain :) Hamba-hamba Allah yang bersungguh-sungguh bekerja demi mengejar cinta Allah. Mengejar redha Allah. Subhanallah...adakah aku selama ini buta kerana tidak dapat melihat betapa istimewanya akhawat di sekeliling ku? Adakah hatiku selama ini terlalu memikirkan diri sendiri? Astaghfirullah...

Aku bersyukur kerana masih diberi peluang untuk melihat apa yang sebelum ini tertutup dari pandanganku. Bersyukur kerana Allah masih memilihku untuk sedar. Untuk bangun dari tidurku. Alhamdulillah...sungguh, sakitku ini rupanya nikmat...nikmat yang tidak ku sedari. Alhamdulillah :)

Without You

Salam alayk~

I just listened to this song today and I thought I'd share it with all of you. My dear brothers and sisters :) How many times do we actually think about this? The fact that, without Allah...nothing holds any meaning.